One more thing

Today was a tough day for us. I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes on top of everything else we've been facing. While the diagnosis itself isn't as big of a deal as the other challenges we're facing, it seemed to be the tipping point. I really felt like I just can't catch a break. It's also frustrating because having friends & family bring up food or celebrating our weekly accomplishment with cookies have been some of the things that have helped me stay positive in this journey.

One of my biggest mental challenges has been all the typical pregnancy things I feel like I'm missing out on. I wish I could be home, nesting & setting up a nursery. I wish I could have a typical baby shower and wear cute maternity clothes (even though I never found many) and take cute weekly bump photos (that don't include a hospital room background).

I know we have so much to be thankful for, but on days like today I just need to feel sorry for myself. But tomorrow is a new day & will also mean we've made it to 29 weeks. So today I'm giving myself a pity party and tomorrow I'll be back to celebrating another weekly milestone (without cookies). And Thursday my friends have put together a virtual baby shower for me (coming to you live on Facebook). While it may not be the shower I envisioned, I am so thankful to all of you who are helping us get things ready for the day when we bring Jack home.

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  1. UnknownAugust 29, 2017 at 6:19 PM

    Oh Sally! I'm so sorry. It will all be worth it when sweet Jack is here safe, happy, and healthy! Thinking of you often and saying prayers! You are strong Momma! -Kate Monroe

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